Have it Uruguay!

21 Dec

Mr. Star and I leave for Uruguay tomorrow for the Christmas holidays.  Did you say Uruguay? Yes, Uruguay, South America.  It’s that little country directly south of Brazil and north of Argentina.  That is where his family is originally from.  It will be my second time going to visit and first time during the holidays.  Being south of the equator this is their summertime which means it is beach season.  Yeah!  To prepare I’ve been ramping up the Spanish for the past two months with a tutor and splurging on random comforts like new inflatable neck pillows for the impending marathon flight in each direction.  While I am gone it will be a bit quiet here on the blog.

Here’s a quick update on the baby-making front.  On Sunday I got a BFN.  It was the day after my cat died, so double boo!   This time I went straight to the lab instead of relying on the old pee sticks which failed me before.  It was our first month of trying since our new Immunology Dr. (from the Dr. Alan Beers Center) gave us the green light and first attempt since miscarriage #5 in July.  I am crossing my fingers for month #2.  I was able to see my RE doc today for my Day 3 ultrasound to get the green light from her for a prescription for Femara.  The last three pregnancies were all Femara assisted with success on the second month.  Well, here we are again going into the second month.  Will I get luck a fourth time?  When deciding if we try again naturally or move on to more aggressive treatments (like IUI or IVF) I had told myself we should at least try Femara again as it was so effective before.  If we get a BFN again this month I am going to have to consider plan B.  It seems like I already got lucky getting pregnant five times naturally, what is the likelihood I could get pregnant so easily again?  Each time it seemed like a miracle. Something worked!  Even though they all ended up the same way, it was reassuring that SOMETHING was working offering up that little sliver of hope each time that maybe this time will be different.  I don’t know why but part of me worries that I’ve had my five chances and they were squandered.  I feel almost greedy expecting a sixth one.  Trying to get pregnant naturally a sixth time after five losses defies a certain sense of logic, esp. as I am now four years older than when I started this.  Feeling completely undeserving of another try, we cross our fingers and try again.

Note-  The house is SO empty now without our little kitty.  I am so grateful to be going away even if it’s going to be an intense experience with the in-laws in a foreign land.

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4 Responses to “Have it Uruguay!”

  1. Hope December 21, 2011 at 9:37 pm #

    Sorry for your BFN on Sunday. Boo is right.

    I really hope the Femera works again for you this time. And that the immune treatments help things keep working if it does.

    Enjoy Uruguay. Sounds like getting away from your quiet, empty house and all the memories of your kitty will be good right now.

    • starfishkittydreams December 21, 2011 at 11:27 pm #

      Thank you for your support. I look forward to seeing you when I get back!

  2. Mo December 24, 2011 at 4:18 am #

    Hope you have an amazing trip!
    Here’s hoping for an easy natural BFP – and one that sticks this time! You deserve that and so much more.

    xoxo!

  3. Port of Indecision December 29, 2011 at 3:46 pm #

    I’m so sorry for the BFN and for your kitty. *hugs*

    But have an amazing trip, and eat lots and lots of delicious beef. Oh god, you aren’t a vegetarian are you?

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