A little pregnant?

I was hoping for some dramatic news today, but instead I am back in the waiting game again.  You might say I was “a little bit pregnant”.  That’s the optimistic way to look at it.  I did my beta test today and the result that came back was a very low hcg level of 18.  Technically that counts as positive in their book.  Since I couldn’t wait for their call I jumped the gun and peed on a stick.  BFN.  I have a lot of things on hold waiting for this result that I was hoping to finally settle today, but alas, I get to keep those on hold or just continue to operate with uncertainty.   So if my levels don’t increase I guess I basically had a “chemical” pregnancy.  That would be a first.  I suppose it isn’t all out failure.  So the meds and injections continue along with no sex, no booze, no lifting heavy things, yadda yadda.  This wait and see stuff just feels all to familiar, like all my previous pregnancies.   The good news is I am seeing so many friends who were in the infertile camp graduate and have healthy pregnancies and babies.  It’s good to know there is another side to this.